records sealed

It's finally over... This morning, after waiting two and a half hours for them to get to us, the Elbert County Court officially sealed all records. As I walked out of there for the last time, my mom asked me... "are you finally excited?" (i had struggled to find excitement after the last court appearance where they dropped the charges) I think I made a comment about how glad I was to be out of that building because, truthfully, it was still hard for me to be excited. Don't get me wrong, I'm extremely relieved that the whole thing is finally over, but as I walked out of there I think the hold up was just the complete injustice and unfairness of it all! When I think about how much time and money has gone to fight this accusation for the last SEVEN months, it's hard to be excited about it all because I keep asking... why? What was the purpose of this whole ordeal? Is that fair? Probably not. I should be praising the Lord, but here I am still complaining about having to go through it. I pray that God does use it, and that He'll let me see the fruit of these past few months, but right now that is so hard to see.

"God, change my heart. Open my eyes to your truths, to your paths. Please don't let me stray from your way. As I reflect back, I do see many lessons you have taught me. Thank you for that. Thank you for showing me just how faithful you really are. God, I do thank you that it is finally over. It could have been so much worse and gone on for so much longer. Thank you for the chance to coach again, and for a job that is paying the bills and giving me the time to coach the greatest game ever! I love you!"